I'm trying

I'm trying so hard to be what you ask me to be but its hard coming from the deep hole I made from cheating and lying to you. Its not easy baby. I made some fucked up decisions and can't take back the mistakes I made. I'm only human but damn even humans don't make that many mistakes. I love you too much baby but fate can't prevent you from walking away. If you decided to do me bogus, I couldn't do shit. I wanna be a man and it starts by telling the truth bout who I am. I made a foolish mistake. But I'm being a man and owning up to it. Being a man means you'll do anything to keep ya woman no matter what she wants you to be to her. I can't keep living my life like a dream. I'm still in my nightmare stages cuz my bad habits came back to haunt me. Its like I'm stuck in a doomed place. But I'm determined to break free from the dark hold. I'm not allowing the devil to invade my happiness no more. Jacquese Williams, you are my everything and you mean alot ot me. More than you can imagine. I am nothing without you. No woman can come close or even replace you. I'm not going anywhere. I'm fighting to the very last breath to keep you here. I can't be without you ever. You are my better half, my ying to my yang, the cream in my coffee. You are who I live for other than my daughter. Please understand I'm doing the best I can to be the man you want.