Honesty and truth

I look at myself and see something I never meant to be. What's wrong with me? I never once thought of hurting a woman no matter what they did or didn't do. This is not who I am. I'm living in the shadow's of the average man. Women say that you act like the average man and be a cheater and ya lie to much. I've became the very image I despise so much. I never wanted to be the average man cuz I have a promising future to look forward to with the woman of my life. It seems once you lay a foundation for who you are people tend to go with that and think that's who you are? Then they think you can't change at all. Its not true at all. Women think men are dogs but if you look closely, woman are no different then men. They do the things that men do but there position on that is they too slick to be caught up. I'm gonna put a little light into this subject. I can admit why I cheated. Nagging, keeping tabs, getting mad over petty stuff, assuming you always out cheating and jealousy. If you keep at it, it gives man or woman reason to find something that you think they doing. Me I did cuz of those reasons. It wasn't to find a reason, I got fed up cuz of the jealousy, nagging, keeping tabs, assuming you always cheating, and getting mad over petty stuff. Woman hate stuff like that just as much as men do. But that wasn't a good enough reason for me to go cheat. I was think about wat would happen but it seemed like I didn't care at all. To sum of where I'm going with this, Jacquese Williams, you deserve the world for the things you put up with when it comes to me. I made a huge mistake by doing what I did. Yet I'm trying so hard to redeem myself. Please see that's wat I am. I'm a man and not a boy. I love you more than anything in this world and I'll be damn if I let the next person take or even get a space in wat I have. I'm changing for you baby!